Today Is A Decision

Today is a decision that will go unmade

Today is an opportunity that gets put in the freezer

for some reason unsaid
                                                                  unthought                                       

                             unbred

Today was a lifetime that should have been lived...Instead it's a Joke, and only I'm laughing.

Today was moments that slipped though my fingers, filling my heart with debt to the brim

inverting my conscience through junk soaked sin

yet; a step I take..

-backwards, from myself
I decide I will be different
I decide to choose life
I decide to stop struggling in vain and in strife

I decide to let light be the goal

so step by step I leave the cob-webs behind
safe in the darkness for old demons to pine

small footsteps at first
but strides later on

I tell you today

that my old life is gone.